Welcome to my website

• Site under translation february, 2024.

I created this website several years ago in order to have an image on the Internet when I arrived in France. The idea was to show the different aspects of my life, my interests, my activities and a bit of who I am. Unfortunately, I never had a coherence between my academic life, my work activities and my three main interests : mathematics, computer science and music. One of the reasons is that in those disciplines I also have very varied tastes.

The first two versions of the site were created with PluXML, a package for creating dynamic websites and blogs using XML without the need of a database. With the arrive of static blogs continuous development and continuous integration, I tried to rewrite the site using HUGO and gitlab. Unfortunately the problem of content consistency was still present.

In the summer of 2022, during a meeting of neuro-atypical people, all the attendees presented a certain declination: ADD, ADHD, TSA, DYS, etc. except me (that’s what I thought). The theme of the meeting was ethics and one of the things that struck me was that almost everyone in attendance had an inability to lie. That happens to me, except when the truth might jeopardize the safety of other people. But in general, it’s too much of my angst, that I end up telling the truth quickly. At that point, I began consider seriously the idea that I might have Asperger’s syndrome, which is a declinination of the autism spectrum disorder (ASD) without loss of intellect. In general, people with Asperger’s syndrome have exceptional intelligence.

When I returned back home, I started to inform myself extensively about this syndrome. In particular, I found a site that helped me a lot to understand myself: it is generic but I mas identified with certain characteristics considering that I am HIQ with complex profile and thinking in arborescence.

• My difficulties in communicating are evident.
• My problems in having a rhythm during a conversation as well.
• My phobia for phone calls, and my problem to realize when I should speak or when I should let my interlocutor speak.
• Counting the line posts (in Mexico, electricity and phone services are distributed by line posts),
• Not stepping on the block separation stripes on the floor.
• Not using an address book for years and having almost all the phone numbers in my head (that changed when I was 46).
• Hyperactive, sleeping only 2 to 4 hours a day (also changed after my 46th birthday).
• Having my bedroom or desk in disorder, but knowing where everything is located.
• The ease of having quick answers to complex problems, and that my colleagues spend weeks before accepting the same result.
• Obsessing about some things and not sleeping until I find solutions.
• Concentrating on certain issues and forgetting the time for lunch or the time to go to sleep.
• Practicing a musical instrument in the morning and then realizing that it is already 8 o’clock at night and that I didn’t have breakfast.
• Feeling that by repeating certain actions I can concentrate on certain elements and to feel that, after some time, I see things in slow motion.
• Remembering old things from my youth as if they had happened the week before, or feel that after a few days, I know someone as if we have known each other for months or years.
• And finally, the most difficult, the relationship with my partners.

In my case, I feel that everything is a relationship with our concept of time. Some specialists consider that the speed at which information travels between the neurons of an aspi (a familiar way to denote people with Asperger’s syndrome) is several times faster than that of a normal or neuro-typical person.

And that’s it! I’m aspi. The content’s consistency does not matter, just I’ll be myself.